Scared dating scan
My pregnancy was a complete surprise and not at all planned, so my brain needed a while to catch up with the situation at hand. If you're one of the 1 in 4 women who will experience a pregnancy loss or miscarriage in her lifetime, that first ultrasound can be just as anxiety-inducing as it is exciting. Hell, you're human; there's no way you can help it. It was unbelievable, yet there they were; beating in rapid succession and creating a sound I didn't know I needed to hear. I mean, dear baby Jesus, you should come with a warning.
You want to feel nothing but absolute joy and bask in that moment, but the fear that something will go "wrong" creeps it's way into the corner of your brain and threatens to ruin your day. I was going to lose my sh*t and cry like I've never cried before. Something like, "Will use gross gel to make you cry a bucket of happy/nervous/scared/excited tears.
The victims, generally four per episode, are set up by friends/family in tandem with producers.
My pregnancy was very difficult and, at 19 weeks, I lost one of my twin sons, however, that first ultrasound was the moment I realized I was going to be the mother of twins, even if one died and, when I birthed him, would never take a breath or a cry.
After a hiatus, the show returned for a third season, beginning July 9, 2008.
The first season of the show was hosted by Shannen Doherty.
Crying in front of total strangers isn't necessarily my "thing," so I wasn't too thrilled for the emotional rollercoaster I was getting strapped in for.
Having a scan in the first few months of pregnancy can be a thrilling experience.